"This is just a half-life"

It's not really that great having no idea where you'll be in 3 weeks, 4 weeks, 5 weeks, the next couple of years. Perhaps Chicago. Perhaps Indianapolis. Perhaps Cincinnati. Probably not the only home you've ever known. It's unsettling to think about. Unsettling to think you might be leaving for good. Unsettling to think that the person you're bringing with you is perhaps even more scared than you are. Not that you're scared, just apprehensive. Ready, but apprehensive. Apprehensive about what you'll be doing. How many hours a day you'll be doing it. When you'll start, and how you'll fit in. Ready to be done with the first few months so those questions will be answered.

In the meantime...inbetween times...you keep busy going about the days you've created for yourself in this portion of your life. School. Work. Sleep. School. Work. Less Sleep. Occasionally you work in some time with your friends. Unfortunately, those times have been very infrequent recently. Unfortunately, those times may not exist at all when that 3 weeks, 4 weeks, 5 weeks rolls around. It's April 18, 2006. Wake-up. Things are about to change. Pack your bags. Bring your lifemate. This end like all ends brings new beginnings. This New that is beginning like all things New and Old, will bring extreme joys and extreme sorrows, days of depression and days of jubilation, moments of amazement and moments of fear, a life of busyness and a life of rest. There is a time for everything. This time that is quickly approaching is the time for Change that is always around the corner but seems a lifetime away.