I'll wake up to a song by Athenaeum - Suddenly.
Please wake me
I don't know if I'm still dreaming
Please wake me
I'm one side calm and one side screaming
If I remember correctly, fall of my freshman year, I woke up to this song all the time. Probably even my first day of college. Four years later. I can feel myself changing in several ways. Why changing now? I'm not sure. Is it natural to change along with change? Perhaps. This past week, several days I began the day consciously being happy rather than unconsciously being on autopilot. I started doing devotions this past week without some spiritual breakthrough. I feel ready to face the world. Ready to be done with school. Ready for whatever life throws at us. So this is it. It will end well. A chapter is ending.
The Soundtrack to this very important week will be Elliott's Song in the Air. A CD Nate D. let me borrow that he accurately describes as "atmospheric" and "sad." In light of this sadness, I realized that sad things make me extremely happy. My happiest moments come as a result of something that seems sad. Is that odd? The saddest part of a movie, makes me happy. A sad song makes me happy. Not happy in the smile and laughing sort of way, but happy in the emotionally joyful sense of the word.
The first of my last finals begins in six hours. Wish me luck. Goodnight. It's been a blast.
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From the DICTIONARY OF QUOTATIONS:
-"Change is not made without inconvenience, even from worse to better." (Richard Hooker)
-"There is a certain relief in change, even though it be from bad to worse; as I have found in traveling in a stage-coach, that it is often a comfort to shift one's position and be bruised in a new place." (Washington Irving)
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